When I get upset, I often lay myself face-down into a pile of bed linens as if it’s an attempt to get quiet and concentrated enough to divine what I mean or want to mean or why I’m mean. It is sad planking. I was thinking about getting iced and how I never watched any videos about it but I knew what it was and how it bummed me out, somewhat, that it felt like it was straight up marketing towards this demographic, this internet twenty-something one and I’ve laughed when it happened but still. Forgot Four Loko was called Four Loko, kept thinking of it as the thing that replaced Sparks. Sparks. The first years I lived in Chicago and the free Sparks. How dated photobooths at parties are but a fondness for the box kind you get into without someone at the other end. Not sinister but disheartening. Can’t you just have fun to have fun? I am writing to just write.